Dealing With Paranoid Behavior

Created By Kinjal Darukhanawala On 18 May, 2009

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Added By Kinjal Darukhanawala On May 18, 2009, 12:00 am
Country: India
This morning I was sitting and reading the newspaper after my breakfast. I was feeling refreshed as I had slept peacefully and the weekend was great. Nothing could come in my way as far as enjoying a fruitful week was concerned. As I was reading the headlines, my mind had already started wandering. What am I going to do today? The weather is hot and what am I going to eat for lunch!

Then suddenly out of nowhere a negative thought crept into my mind. I had met an old friend at a party couple of days ago and had gossiped about some common acquaintances we both sort of disliked. I started to get a feeling that this gossip session had triggered a thought process and it was now making me paranoid about the repercussions. My freshness had fast turned into anxiety and fear. There I was sitting on the same couch, holding the entertainment section of a daily and feeling nervous out of nowhere.

I spoke to my husband to clear my head. What he said was something very beautiful and meaningful. He said that when we give the not-so-important thoughts a lot of attention and constant energy, they automatically transform into actual situations. I mean that is so true. Sometimes our worst fears come true, as we are constantly thinking about them and replaying them over and over again in our heads. And when they actually manifest into reality we are shocked. Damn! I knew this would happen and it actually did.

When I was watching the DVD of The Secret, I realized the most important message. Our thoughts dominate our actions and our actions put us in situations. Can you imagine the state of planet earth if all the thoughts of all humans were fast turning into reality? My God! Nobody will be able to clean that filth.

Happy thoughts lead to happy actions, which eventually translate into positive situations and circumstances. And exactly opposite is also the case. Then why is it so damn hard for all of us feed our mind with good thoughts? May be because the mind is a separate entity, which is not in our control and has a power trip of its own!

My favorite book, A New Earth has something wonderful to say. The voice in our head has a life of its own, but we need to let it know that we are still the boss. Maybe the thoughts that come to us can’t be controlled by us. But we can certainly control the power we give to each thought.

And about my paranoia, my husband had one more interesting thing to say. He suggested that if I had not gossiped the other night, then I would not feel anxious in the present moment. So true!